Romanticizing Romance

 I’ve lived enough to believe that it doesn’t exist - 

This sought after abstract bit.

Romance is dead? Or perhaps sleeping?

‘Cause it seems to always miss me in its moments a fleeting.

I used to wonder what it might be like,

But I’m grown up now and those thoughts now seem childlike.

The “magic” spoken of, the butterflies mentioned - 

The illusive picture painted, the fallible pretensions.

I once craved this gem that didn’t seem so rare,

I even blamed myself and thought it a fear.

But I’m no longer afraid of such a common thing,

For I now look towards less vulgar settings.

Since experiences taught much and forecasts gave me my cue.

If it should present itself to me now, I’d think it not true.

Jon Doe

I thought I never wanted this,

But as soon as I tasted those lips,

That protected that contagious smile,

I knew this feeling would last a while.

Maybe it’s the way you said my name,

Or perhaps the way you carry your frame?

That soothing voice of yours!

Oh my, what is this curse?

A trance I must be in,

Because you’re making my head spin.

Maybe it’s the newness of it all,

I’ve never imagined something like this, I can’t recall.

That drive back is still on my mind,

How can a stranger be so kind?

I’ve maybe let my guard down too soon,

Am I being a fool?

I know this is not good for me,

But how can I not let it be?

The conversations that we share,

Are one of a kind, truly rare.

What a shame it will all end,

When we part ways this weekend.

Dark Features

With eyes so dark and deep,

Skin so pale and unique. 

I’m captivated by your mystique,

As though I became a part of your physique.

A majestic creature you are indeed,

Dark features of which I didn’t know I was in need.

Ones like you are a rare find,

For you are truly one of a kind.

I wish to one day let you know,

Just how much I admire you, snow.

I don’t even know your name,

Oh my, what a shame!

Plantation (Forbidden) Tale

I'm curious to know what it tastes like on the other side.
Do your people enjoy the ride?
Tell me this,
Do you notice,
The distance between us in this place?
Something far beyond our race?
Think for a moment how dull earth would be,
If she didn't have people who looked like me.
I don't mean to sound daring,
But even you were staring.
You couldn't help yourself, but I am not mad.
If you speak up, then you might just be glad.
I was staring too, don't get me wrong,
But I'm done making moves, it's your turn.
Won't you take a step, I promise not to bite.
We both know you're just as curious, Mr White.

Better Days

It was my first time and you knew it.
I should have taken the hints and quit.
You played me like a fool,
And what's worse, I let you.
No apologies because you never cared.
I never really knew you, because your feelings, you never shared.
I should have known better, but love made me blind.
I was always just too kind.
I gave you my all, but got nothing in return.
I hope one day, you will see your wrongs.
I leave you up to fate.
I hope you will find your way before it's too late.
All that hurt is fading away,
But that love I once felt, is long on its way.
You were right, I deserve better,
And I have it in this new chapter.
I take back what I said in those letters.
It was foolish of me to think that I needed you.
When all along, it was I who didn't know the truth.
You kept kicking while I was still low.
But I'm up now. Thanks for letting me go.

Come Closer

How often do we really wonder
About the difference between lightening and thunder?
Which comes first or are they simply the same?
Or even how they got their names?
It's curious how similar we are
Like the pair, we go together,
But never in the same place.
Maybe we ought to pick up the pace.
Your past matters not to me,
Because mine is far beyond where the eyes can see.
You have my permission to come closer.
Open up so I may go in deeper.
You intrigue me, Mr. Colour
Won't you let me discover?

NEW FLAME

NEW FLAME

Out of nowhere he came,

Then I knew I wasn’t going to stay the same.

A distraction from what seemed like hell,

He helped me to feel well.

His approach was unconventional, yet charming.

Somehow, I didn’t see it coming.

He reminded me how beautiful I am,

He showed me a whole new plan.

He reminded me how smart I am,

He reminded me that I can.

But whatever this is set out to be,

I cannot stay because this isn’t for me.

My past taught me to not get comfortable,

Don’t put all my cards on the table.

I shall leave him alone,

Even though I am not done,

I should keep myself company,

Until to try again I am ready.

Catch Me

Could it be that this shouldn't be?
Or maybe we should wait and see?
Those scenarios keep replaying in my head.
All that was done and all that was said.
The feeling of desperation is all I have.
Desperate for a helping hand.
I cannot face this on my own.
Go ahead and throw me a bone.
It seems what was is somehow gone.
In hindsight, I should have known.
I fell for you, but you weren't there to catch me.
Maybe the past still lingers. Maybe.
I keep falling and I think I'm near the bottom.
I can't help but to think maybe I'm the problem.

La Blessure

You need to open your eyes.
What you don't seem to realise,
I am precious. I am a prize.
Do you care what my reaction would be
When your activities I see?
Those girls you follow,
How could you be so shallow?
The pictures you like,
Man take a hike!
I sometimes wonder what it is that you seek,
When lurking on those pages you peek.
It hurts that you make me compare
Others to how I appear.
What is it that you want from me?
Why do you make me feel like that, I could never be?
Tell me if there's something I lack.
Tell me if you want to go back.
How do you feel making me cry?
I shan't stand by,
And let you make me feel like I'm not enough.
I'll be fine. I am tough.
It sometimes feels like I am all alone.
'Cause you are often absent and I wonder where you've gone.
What is it that has your attention?
Give me a sign. Give me a mention.
I hate that I have often competed
With your past and present, which leave me defeated.
I don't know when to approach you.
How about you give me a clue?
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
That, I wish you could also see.
Open your ears and listen carefully.
I only hope I mean half as much to you as you mean to me.

(Navy) Blue

Missing you is hard for me.
My heart is breaking you see.
I wonder how you do,
But I cannot ask you.
I might be the last thing on your mind,
But could you be so kind?
Find a way to let me know you're fine.
I just hope nothing between us has changed,
For to you, my soul is engaged.
Let me know you still feel the same.
Else I cannot bear the pain.
Release me from this torture.
I need to stop thinking the worst.
Tell me that you want me for the rest of your life.
Won't you ask me to be your wife?