Disillusionment

Disillusionment

Time is your enemy or is it space?
There's no need to rush. It's not a race!
I question my position
What is the direction?
A lifetime of happiness is never guaranteed.
Tarry a while and cut your speed.
You say you want this more than anything else,
But it seems you're just saving self.
I've been waiting for feelings to be returned,
I guess I just have to wait my turn.
Unrequited emotions are my enemies,
I need a reason by any means.
Seems you're the one who is unsure,
Or maybe you are simply insecure.

Seeking Face (Value)

Seeking Face

To dream or to wish?
To hunt or to fish?
A spontaneous moment
Or constantly planing ahead?
Riddles, guesses
Tests and quizzes -
Whether to fly, run or leap?
Or to crawl, hide or creep?
Decisions are to be made.
I can't leave things up to fate.
For you, I'm afraid to fall,
But this is what I want most of all.
Please understand my wait.
We have time. It's not too late.

SWALLOWING STONES

SWALLOWING STONES

I never knew such feelings could exist
Wanting you close at a time as this.
Still I push you away, I must admit.
Not intentionally,
Yet not coincidentally.
A ripple effect if you may -
You pushed me first, and I blindly followed anyway.
Now I miss you just the same.
The nostalgia is insane!
Nonetheless,
I am trying my best
To outrun my past,
For like my shadow, me, it haunts.